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yeah..finished with internal cycle 2day..thats 3 rotations done so far but ony 2 zachuts in my book..yeap, she refused to sign our books, saying that the head of department said that zachut for internal medicine will be given only after the last lecture at the end of this sem..

in total, i lost count of the amount of patients i had to clerk..i even had one 2day!! thats like 7 or 8 altogether..geez..basically, my communication skills have improved ( medical wise ) but my grammar still stinks worse than the kitchen dumpster haha..nvm nvm, we have a bit more time to brush up on that nonsense before the ruski exam next year..

so wat have i learnt, that i could say, about this cycle??

1) we have had a total of 4 teachers : aleksei, illya, kseniya, maria.. and the winner is…..illya gregorevich pochinka!! 10% for the cute surname ( absurdly enuff, everytime i hear the surname, this image comes to mind, that of the lil’ toy monkey beating the drum and saying pochinka, pochinka..okay thats stupid ) 70% for the knowledge and 20% for being adorably charming..he beats vasenin..haha, girls.. next in line would be kseniya smthin smthin ( dun remember the name cos didnt print case report ) - i give her 20% for being a really cool teacher, 10% for clinical discussions and 70% for clinical notes, one of the best..

2) i had a lot of patients, one of whom gave me 2 apples,another who pearly had the time of her life palpating his abdomen, the other very happily greets me everytime we meet which really makes my day..many whom i had the pleasure of poking and prodding, all in the name of physical examination of cos..then some who just interupt with some crazy remarks like ” she’s playing drums on your abdomen man!! ” and ” inspect him too, we both have the same disease ” and one today ” this finger indicates disease of heart, this one of liver “..

3) real long journey to get to 13th hospital but its pleasant..the scenery is great, especially around autumn time - makes me think that its not such a bad place after all. nizhny..its golden!! seriously..jus so damn beautiful..

4) happy happy medical staff..the nurses are quite cheerful and helpful, so unlike the ones in semashko and guvd..in fact, everyone here ( almost..) seems cheerful..

5) i got to do a spirometry test..apparently i have restrictive lung disease, possible bronchiole obstruction and decreased lung capacity..either the machine was wrong or i m a medical miracle..i m guessing the latter..

my days are getting longer n more torturous..classes seem to last for ages and my eyes simply refuse to open anytime before 3 hours of sleep, minimum..take for example yesterday, or the week before that - i went to bed late in the evening around 7pm, plannin to be up by 9 or 10 and get some work done..2 phone calls and a message didnt succeed in getting me out of my bed before 6am the following day..i was like ‘SHUCKS!!!’..i slept like a pig but still feel drop-dead tired though..

so i m off to bed now..so the sleepiness, i cant even type anymore..

just finished dinner not too long ago..wat did i have - canned salmon and fried eggs..i have always loved salmon but the one in the can - NA-AH!!! so the terukness, i had to force myself to finish it so that it wouldnt go tumbling down the bin..

so feeling particularly full and a bit nauseated, i have settled down to posting yet another boring blog..

i have something on my mind which i m itching to write down here..but being not too sure about it becos i have no idea who reads this blog here ( here refering to my nizhny peepz ) and so i wudnt want to have my words twisted into some huge conflict later..not that i could be bothered but it would reflect badly on me..isy..

well neways, the juniors are all here oredy, the last batch arriving on thursday..i wasnt around to greet them or watever becos for one thing, i was fast asleep and on the other hand, there was oredy enuff commotion over who’s stayin where and bla bla with things getting out of hand and…

and one of them was assigned to come and ‘interview’ me..kinda like a get to now your senior ice-breaking thingy..only that it wasnt the msa who sent him..and thanks loads for having a go at my name - i know that its too complex and unique for simple minds..

so anyway, besides all the usual questions about name and year and hometown and etc., there was also the question about my weight and height ( yup, its of the utmost importance, that is ), do i have a boyfriend ( he’d probably be 6 feet under now ) and what do i think of boys here..shit, i was itching to give him a piece of my mind on that and i would have if i hadnt been the considerate person that i m..applause applause..

then they had ‘the meeting’..basically all my kakis here know the story, some the full version..but i totally didnt expect the 1st year to question me about that..i was like, what the heck?? its only his 4th day here and we’re oredy famous?? geez..wonder what he has heard though..

so neways back to the meeting..the exco came all the way to my doorstep to invite me..and i was adamant that i will have nothing to do with MISA this year watsoever and for the following years to come..it wasnt some random decision that i made..i have thought really long and hard about it and came to the conclusion that this is probably the best decision that i could make..

seriously it wasnt easy for me to completely rebuke and ignore what they said..at one point, i was on the verge of ‘why not’ when i remembered how it had been the last time i was in the same position..even when i think about how far along the way i have come, from being good friends to archenemies who turn their noses away and take a huge round u-turn just to avoid being a few steps away from you, from working together to bickering at each other, from the committee member to the outcast..thats like the opposite poles of the world and its ridiculous!!

but maybe its for the best..at least i dun have to toil just to have the fruits of my efforts being shoved down the dumpster..at least i dun have to argue or bicker or run around trying to get things done..at least i dun have to watch people getting pissed drunk and turning up late the next day..at least i dun have to watch morons being morons..at least i dun have to sit in a corner and watch people passing by as if we were non-existent..at least, i wont have people falling at my legs every time they need any help and then run in the opposite direction when i’ve done enuff..

so, its pretty much a good thing that i m keeping myself away from all this..which reminds me of the senior who did the same thing years ago..and i have always wondered why then..i know now..

so to you guys, its nothing personal against you or anyone else for that matter..us being there doesnt make any difference, ‘cept maybe u lose the manpower but besides that, there really isnt nothing to lose..sorry for being such a prat and making you ask again and again and again - i have my reasons..so please do continue without us..

oh and by the way, since i have been made the un-official leader of this coup, lemme announce the formation of the C^3 ( no superscript button )..

C^3 = CCC = COOL COMMUNISTS CLUB

feel free to join..

HAPPY RAYA EVERYONE!! and i have class tomoro..shucks..

so as usual, it is yet another saturday..had a good day before that - class, then stopped by at the adidas warehouse as it was on the way home, then came back home only to get ready and head for a grocery shopping spree in MEGA..returned home at about 9-something, watched wall-e and hit the bed at a little after 12..woke up at half past 10, a good shower and breakfast later, i m back at my table plannin to continue on reading some stuff..only that my medical books are all exposed on my table but my eyes were on my laptop screen..

i have not been keeping up with my blog-reading-mania so i happened to come across some real interesting articles today..and while going through all this and trying to digest it all, i just happened to glance out the window and..woe-and-behold, IT’S SNOWING!!!

sheesh..its snowing..and october is still 2 weeks away..i thought it was jus a temporary thing but it seems to hold on and is snowing away like mad..shucks..just when we were planning to buka puasa at the new italiano restaurante el patio at belinskova..isy..now i m gonna have to change my wardrobe assembly..haha..

ah..i may complain now and again but truth be told…

I LOVE IT WHEN IT SNOWS!!! WEEEEEEE….

i am annoyed..with a lot of things..

1) the stupid bag of nuggets which cost me 70rubles and tastes like shit..and it just laps up the oil like a sponge which dribbles over your chin when you bite into it..talk about better fat-soluble vitamins absorption, if there’s any..annoyance-ful..

2) the internet service which is so pathetic, i’d like to put it out of its misery by whacking its CNS if it has one..requires refreshing every now and then, for what i dont know..ter-amat mengannoyingkan..

3) broke..AGAIN!!! for the umpteenth time..but considering that i had half of what i usually spend in a month..goes to show that you can survive with that amount but it would be a very sad and forsaken life..unless you have an exam to prepare for and have to revise..so-the-annoying..

4) PHARMACOLOGY..i have mentioned this time and again, once too many, even i myself am sick of hearing myself talking about it..tak habis habis..dong punye manusia, bilalah nak habis baca..everyone has been telling me ” JUST GO DO IT WILL YA, AND GET IT OVER WITH “..yeah yeah..ochin annoying..

5) lousy water supply..my bathroom shower always has a problem..i just feel like breaking the pipes every morning if it would do me any good..and today, they cut off the hot water supply, freezing my hands..and when it came back on, i could have just jumped into the oka river for all the difference it made..the water was so freakingly filthy, the soap was disgusted at me for wasting it..annoyingnaya..

it was hari malaysia yesterday..the day we celebrate the formation of a country called malaysia..but i think yesterday, none of our fellow malaysian’s back home were very much interested in remembering history dating decades ago..oh no, they were very much interested in discovering if anwar will take over the country’s rule as he said he would..i was curious too..

as we all discovered, nothing changed hands, ‘cept for a portfolio or two..situation seem to be so tense these past few days..everyone is fuming over the ruling coalition’s misdeeds and blunders..

i think that we have all lived long enough in malaysia to know and accept that we are different..different races and religions, people of stout beliefs and principles..yet, almost every day when i was back at home, there had to be some news report on some politician claiming racial-tension and do-not-question-special-rights and threatning may16-may-happen-again and don’t-ask-for-more-than-what-you-get and whatsnot..

people left, right and centre are coming up with various explanations trying to clarify what’s really happening in malaysian politics..the online newspaper doesnt reveal as much..and i dont really wanna believe everything that i read in blogs even though they were written by influential people..

i just hope malaysians everywhere just learn to accept and come in terms with things back home..i wish for peace in my country and everyone to be safe and sound by their loved ones..i wish that people really practice what they preach..i hope that instead of promoting endlessly about how we are a multiracial country, we really start to LIVE it..i wish we could be a model example of how a nation so small could achieve things of great magnitudes..i hope we all tolerate one another for the country’s sake..i hope we will all be known as malaysians and never be ashamed to say it out loud..i wish that everything will be back to normal soon and may we all live in perfect harmony as before..

” DREAM A MALAYSIAN DREAM ”

-TKM-

still am revising for pharmacology..lucky you people who kamikaze today..so anyways, i have ( yet again ) postponed my exam date to a more suitable time..i think i have been afflicted by the curse of procrastination like the infamous postponers..cis..

anyway, as i was going through the different drugs for different diseases, trying to remember mechanisms, therapeutic uses and adverse effects, i stopped a while at the topic ‘anti-parkinsonian drugs’..

for many, its just yet another chapter but for me, it brings me back to this particular day during form 4 in convent..we were a floating class then because of the lack of classrooms so we were instead temporarily occupying the hall near the headmistress’ office..

it was english language time ( or was it moral?? ) and our teacher was a trainee teacher named miss dayanthi..we were assigned to enact a short play, in which a couple of my frens and i planned to stage about parkinson’s disease..

the story was relatively simple : guy with wife and child, drunkard who frequently goes clubbing and returns home in the wee hours of dawn..he abuses his wife, but finally when he is diagnosed with parkinson’s, he was taken care of by the wife anyway and he repents his actions..

all went well in the beginning..our acting was very natural and spontaneous ( cheh, perasan case!! )..my best fren was acting as the guy..when she suddenly had an attack of parkinson’s ( the kononnya 1st attack ) which was very “severe”, she had to be supported and made to sit on a chair..only that she didnt sit, she fell - breaking the plastic chair in the process..being the very talented actress that she is, she didnt even stop the seizing act but continued on, leaving the rest of us in laughter and clutching our stomachs..needless to say, we finished as one of the best drama groups..

woooo!!! i feel so totally exhilarated!!! nope, i havent finished pharmaco - far from it though, no..i am over the moon becos i finally fixed the heater!!! finally, some amount of warmth in my room apart from the small side fan whirring wildly day in day out..

actually, the heater suddenly broke down last sem just before we were going to head back home..and so we were planning to get a new one to replace the one we currently have, which has served us faithfully for the past 3 years without the hint of a problem..

so anyway, after a long time contemplating about it, i decided to finally open it up and have a look inside..got the toolbox from kheng huat, got the screwdriver and twirled through, past the protective box to the very core..and just as i had suspected, the thermostat controller was broken..so, with some careful tinkering here and there, managed to remove the faulty part and put it back all together..thing is, now we have to manually adjust it but who cares!! its working again!!!

ah, i am truly a jack of all trades..maybe i can fix the washing machine too..wakaka..